Archive for May, 2006

Struggling To Let Go: Why? Let Peace Be.

May 30th, 2006 No comments

Kate, a regular reader of wrote “I have long been struggling to let go of the need to look for others for help and/or approval, for them to say I’m OK.” in the comments to my recent post Inside Out and Back To Front”. That post was about the difference between a life directed from inner resources and a life directed at satisfying externally percieved desires and threats.

When Kate writes “struggling to let go” she is emphasising another key obstacle on the path to realisation. In trying to get from “here” to “there”, in exerting effort to “achieve” peace, we are unknowingly setting in chain a causal process which will preclude us from our goal. We are taught in early childhood that we are not OK. We learn to run around looking for the things and experiences and behaviours which will make us OK. They do not exist yet we are busy all our lives seeking them out. Similarly we try to seek out our own peace.

Meditation, the path to peace, is fundamentally the opposite of this process. Yet in trying to find peace we bring our hunger, our thirst, our craving for it to the fore. By doing so we ensure we will never find it because the satisfaction of this lack of peace can not be found through seeking which is the opposite to peace. The only way to satisfy it is to ignore it, to ignore all contents of mind, to sit.

Not to hypnotise oneself into not noticing but to notice and then laugh, let go and ignore: to develop, to cultivate, “the watcher” – that part of oneself which sits on the sidelines taking notes but not actively doing. Peace is a state of mind in which the current states of mind you inhabit have been worn out by their own activity. When they stop there is peace. You can’t use them to find their own absense, you can use the watcher.

Breath by breath, if you are sitting in the right way, peace descends upon you, or grows up from the ground to inhabit you. Sitting is just about letting peace be. Recovery can be a struggle but at some point it has to become an outbreath. It has to become a realisation that the dangers of the past have gone, that the habituated responses to them are a self maintaining pattern of fight/flight. That the struggle of recovery has become the thing you are strying to recover from. The knowing has to be incorporated – it has to be a bodily knowing. And for such a bodily knowing to happen, the thinking mind has to stop struggling and settle down first.

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BBC and Government Compliance

May 26th, 2006 No comments

The BBC news anchor asked the man in Washington “George Bush spoke very openly about any mistakes he may have made in Iraq. Were people surprised by that openness?”. George Bush said his gung-ho talk sych as “wanted dead or alive” was not helpful and that the biggest mistake was Abu Ghraib pronounced “Abu GaReb”.

I somehow doubt the people of the world consider that an open or full enough apology for their purposes. especially as he said it was still right to have faught the war and toppled Sadam. Mr Bush does not understand it is the deliberate lies and constructed false justification of war that means everything he has done since has been so disliked and distrusted. And the BBC reporter needs a slap with a wet fish, a la Monty Python, to raise her awareness of bias. There is a fishy smell of Government compliance about BBC morning television.

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Flower – A Poem For A Recovering Friend

May 13th, 2006 No comments


You are not dirty
You are purer than snow
What you did to survive
Allowed you to grow

Now you are growing
Brighter each day
Shining a light
Following the way

Sometimes it will feel
Like there’s no end in sight
Just remember that truth
Will always win out

Be careful and safe
While you travel the path
Your beauty will draw men
Like moths to a flame

But they’ll never see you
For the girl that you are
Until you can see you
And know who you are

So welcome home friend
It’s good to know you
To help you to flower
And grow into you

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Freedom For All? Or Why Bush Is A Pretentious Tyrant.

May 8th, 2006 No comments

A quick search on Google for the words ‘freedom for all’ places first followed by a CNN report on the second inauguration of President George Bush. ‘Bush called on the “force of human freedom” to “break the reign of hatred” and “expose the pretensions of tyrants” in the world.’ says the report.

Bush has no idea what freedom is. He has not escaped his own appalling childhood or the consequences of his alcoholism, let alone faught off the “mind-forged manacles” of his culture and society. The biggest war of propoganda and hatred ever waged is Mr Bush’s “War on Terror”.

In short, Mr Bush is a pretentious tyrant.

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