Silence Is Not Always Golden
An attempt has been made to shut my mouth so I stop embarrassing those in the medical profession whose negligence has harmed me. The Medical Defence Union, representing several of the doctors concerned tried to have my host take down freedomforall. net.
For whatever reason there has been a wholesale failure to appropriately investigate my physical health issues and provide a care plan. One of the doctors concerned originally said he took the view that there was no point taking a view on my psychology but that it was obvious my physical problems had not been “fully investigated”. This was before he turned tail in the face of God only knows what kind of coercion or argument.
According to the two osteopaths who have worked most closely and recently with me this has now gotten dangerous. One says it has put my physical health and possibly even my life at risk. The other that it is medically unsafe to attempt further treatment and that my physical and psychological well being is now at risk.
Having stamped all over my human right to health, and threatened my human right to life, the doctors now want to keep me from my human right to free speech. Silence is golden? Not when, as one web host put it “Its always the web host who gets targetted as its a way of getting material removed without a judge having to look at whether the material is true or not. In other words by threatening a web host they can get material removedwhich may actually be true but which they don’t like.”
I will shut up about what has been done to me when the damage is put right, or when I pop my clogs, whichever comes first, and not before. Either way the negligence of those persons charged with caring for my physical health care – and paid by the state to do so – will come to light.
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Ugly People
Having talked of beautiful people in my last post I could talk of ugly people. Ugly people do ugly things. And they are not intrinsically, inherently “ugly” – it is all in their behaviour. It is an adaptive learned behaviour or set of behaviours, which has passed it’s sell by date, yet remains in use.
This ugliness it has little to do with physical attractiveness, actually nothing at all. They often hide their ugliness behind an acceptable facade. You can’t always tell the ugly people from the outside or straight away. If you don’t get what this post means, stop looking in the mirror and learn to meditatate.
All you have to do is sit straight backed but comfortably on the floor or in any kind of chair, stool, or whatever. Breathe, noticing your breath, and if you start telling yourself a story or reviewing the day or making a shopping list or planning your wedding, gently let the thoughts go and start paying a bit more attention to your breath again. Do it daily for only five minutes and it will change you forever.
This basic “sitting – calming” mediitation teaches you how to allow “identification with thoughts” to drop slowly away. Don’t worry if you don’t get what that means, it is ok just to enjoy the benefits of this stuff. Calming the mind reveals the sea of impulses which bubble up as “Me”. This calms – eventually achieving peace – and then the mind naturally becomes more flexible and stronger and can be applied to conscious “awareness and thinking” meditation to comprehend or see the truth of things.
First one examines the tuth of one’s own body, life, existence, history and sense of self. “Know thyself” said Christ. Then the meditator is achieving a dual benefit of peace and understanding. With discipline and effort, patience and generosity comes the natural development of a wise mind which can then be compassionately applied to all one encounters.
And when one compassionately applies oneself to that which one encounters, the result is naturally and by definition, never ugly.
Listen to this postBeautiful People
I have met some beautiful people this year. My “adopted” daughter who has undoubtedly become a big part of my life. My neighbours have come through for me and some friends I least expected to. And the 14 month old daughter of a close friend has touched me deeply with her knowing comfort with me. She rests her head on my head when I am holding her in my left arm, and falls asleep like that for a few moments, or sometimes pretends to, then laughs madly.
I’ve also (I thought) fallen in love on more than one occassion. Only to be dissappointed. I am a hopeless romantic. But then I have a tendancy to chose ridiculously impossible women to love.
I’ve spent a lot of time at home this year and consequently to while away hours I hang out in chat rooms on the net.I have met some very good and kind people in these places, some really special people.
I’ve met one recently who, though I like her a lot, I am not falling in love with. This is because I have yet to meet her and she’s another, in some ways, perhaps, impossible woman, and mostly, because I am chosing not to. Not yet. She’s a beautiful person and very special. I can tell that already 
Life is good.
Listen to this postPrevelance Of Dissociative Disorders Higher Than Thought.
Dissociative Identity Disorder and other disorders on the dissociative scale are commonly misdiagnosed and are not even believed in by some hard line psychiatrists. I have heard suggested that most persons suffering dissociative disorders spend an average of fourteen years interacting with mental health services before reaching a correct diagnosis- if at all.
In my estimation, probably a majority of the clients of mental health services, whatever name or label their “problem” has been awarded, are suffering a problematic level of dissociation. Usually this is as a direct result of learned dissociation through repression of memories of sexual abuse in Childhood.
Schizophrenia would seem to be dissociative identity order left to fester to the point where other identities are screaming for attention and there is no one centre of self strong enough to contain the others and meet their needs. Personality disorders are the same on a less obvious scale, Psychosis is when the mind needs madness to continue the dissociation.
If this is true we would actually be a lot better off if we stopped medicating and treating “psychiatrically” the majority of mental health users. If there was a well trained body of persons skilled at dealing with dissociative clients and funding for them to work we would, as a community, suffer less problems all round.
Quite how prevalent are these disorders? No one really knows. However, labelling someone as mentally ill is much easier for society to deal with than facing up to the barbarity of the way we live and dealing with that. So it is a good bet that around 40% of the population suffer.
Listen to this postStop Being Right And Start Being
One of the most harmful habits and one of the hardest habits to break is the habit of being right all the time. By being right one sets the other up to be wrong, one instigates conflict from the outset. This way one is always at loggerheads with someone about something. Others who like to be right all the time will spot the challenge you pose and will rise to it time and time again.
It it a good place to start meditation practice “in action”. Spot the moments when “being right” arises. Spot the ensuing thought patterns as they manifest and solidify into the sure knowledge you are right. Spot what follows: there is a rise of tension and even anger as you prepare for battle. Your body runs on stress when you are right all the time.
Using a meditation like this one slowly becomes more and more aware of these patterns, or habits of thinking that lead to negative emotions, actions and words. By becoming more aware or awake one recognises earlier the signs of trouble and stands guard against the mistaken attitude and then by chipping away at the habit with this awareness, you one day find you no longer need to be right. Instead being is itself a pleasure and a joy.
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