“Wherever bicycles are broken or threatened by international communism Bicycle Repair Man is ready”, so said Monty Python in their excellent sketch “Bicycle Repair Man”.

Now Communism is dead, Russia Our Friend and Putin our ally, division in the world had to come from someplace. The middle east was perfect for the Nouvelle Riche families that now run the show. The invention of “International Terrorism” is such a masterstroke of genius. If only it wasn’t dumb as muck and see through as air.

Its strange to me and always has been that people will accept what our society offers in return for their willingness to submit to its rules. It does not get less strange as I get old, but more so. This world this society, this constructed way of being to which we submit is becoming more Orwellian by the day.

Billions are being spent on measuring, monitoring, surveilling and accounting for your behaviour. A picture is being built of your moves, mates, connections, comings and goings. Your emails, phone calls and other communications are logged. Your moves are monitored and soon those of your car will be satellite tracked. This is 1984. And if you tolerate this your children will hate you. For they will live in a divided world full of hurt, anger, hate and violence. Their lives will not be the leisured imaginings of yesteryear about the future.

This is being done in the name of the war on terrorism. Literally billions are being spent and it is a war without end. The war on terror will lead to more terror and more war. It is business, fuelled by oil and the need for it, and creating $$$. The people who get the money do not want the flow of it to slow or stop. the war on terror is perfect for them. No wonder two of the richest families in the world started it: The Bush family and the Bin Laden Family.

No wonder over seventy per cent of the worlds scientists work in “defence research”. We should stop fighting war, especially those with no end. And in which “we” “lose” significant battles like Iraq and Afghanistan. Then we could solve the world’s problems in ten years or so at a rough guess. There would not be many angry bombers around. Your children would inherit a world of peace, prosperity and leisure. So why do politicians not go for it? Well then they would not have power, of course, and would not be significant. So the price of their ego trip is this state in which we live, this “civilisation”.

One evening she stayed, that’s all,
But, you could always tell, by the
Music in your ears and in your heart,
And, Toilet roll strewn across the floor.

Im taking a holiday, I’m going on retreat. I will see you in ten days or so. Enjoy

Paedophilia is portrayed as a lone man’s game played at the borders of the human psyche and the borders of society: It is portrayed as an oddity, a rarity, a danger that comes from strangers. Many paedophiles do act alone, but they are no strangers to their victims: most are fathers or other relatives or family friends. And the majority do not act alone at all. Paedophilia is a group activity and organised business matter. That may seem strange, but let’s face it, if you are into raping children it is no stranger than selling burgers.

It seems more than probable that most paedophilia is a group activity and very socially acceptable amongst the groups that practice it. Fred West was a brothel keeper for such organised paedophile groups. He was not prepared to take the can for their actiivities which is why he “hanged himself” in prison before trial. At trial Fred West intended to come clean about what he was doing and name names. Many of these names were and are very important respectable people. Rose West’s quiet was assured: although completely deranged by her own abusive childhood she was stable and afraid of losing her life to the extent that she could be relied upon. Especially after they killed Fred.

The Sun newspaper has been running a campaign asking what kind of sick people are sending Rose West money in prison that she can binge out on chocolate. Well, where do we start? The sort of people who like to rape and kill children? The sort of people who have the power to keep their activities secret and scare those lower down the pecking order in the “club”? The sort of people who can assuredly tell Rose West they will look after her, and be believed - because of their status and power. The clients of their child brothel included people who, if the truth ever comes out, will send this nation and people around the world into shock.

Do not for a moment think the wests case is a rarity or in any way an exceptional case: the only exception here is that anything was discovered and placed before the law. Remember the famous Belgian case of Marc Dutroux? He too was capturing children and young women and using and abusing them, as well as handing them over to an organised paedophile gang. When asked why he had not handed one victim over to the paedophile ring, Mr Dutroux replied, “I did not give her because I knew that she was going to be killed”. And the Dutroux case had tentacles which lead deep into Belgian power politics - and which lead to nothing in the “bungled” investigation that lead to hundreds of thousands of belgians marching in protest.

There is quite possibly a link between these issues and the lack of medical care I have been offered for the damage caused to me by the abuse I suffered as a child. If powerful people are engaged in these activities and able, by and large, to engage in them with impunity, it is because the activity is a group activity. Perpetrators are able to call on a wide and powerful network of active paedophile connections to hide their activities, cover their tracks and, in the case of Fred West, ensure no news escapes.

It seems likely that this may be what has been happening to me: Initially there was some negligence fuelled by the fallacious view that child abuse is principally a psychological activity and has principally psychological effects (which false view is deliberately placed and supported in medicine by paedophiles). This leads to a body of either constructively wrong diagnosis or just misleading diagnosis (in the case of non paedophiles who buy the myths). If the systemic compensations I suffer are documented and dealt with the fact that they are a common response to early and repeated rape will come out and victims will start to find appropriate help and then recover. And when they recover physically they recover psychologically: putting the paedophiles in danger.

As there seems to be an intentional effort afoot to deny me healthcare, I suggest to any doctor engaged in my case that when a colleague or contact approaches them and suggests it would be professionally inconvenient for my ills to be healed they stop and think: “Am I supporting a colleague or am I helping paedophiles get away with their crimes?” Of course, neither reason is justification but as my former webhost put it:

“Regardless of whether there has been any negligence, the doctors involved are behaving in a way which seems more to do with self preservation that getting to the truth and actually putting right any wrong.”

According to BBC Breakfast a survey of teenagers from around the world has shown that they consider terrorism to be the biggest problem facing the world. Surprisingly this came out ahead of environmental problems and global warming - something children in the western world have been learning about now for years in school.

Terrorism has probably killed a conservative total of perhaps 50,000 people worldwide in the last ten years. Approximately one in three of the teenagers surveyed will have been subjected to invasive sexual abuse and only about one in three of the victims will even be remotely aware of the fact. the ones who are not aware will go on to lead lives out of control: they will make up 90% or so of the next generation of prostitutes, drug addicts and imprisoned criminals. Between them they will extrapolate their own unmanageable lives to those around them through crime, drug use and violence.

In the third world the problem is even worse: 250,000 or so children in South Africa alone will be violently raped next year. This does not include those who will be subjected to quiet ongoing abuse in their own homes. The number is a wild guess, of course, but it is the best guess of those in the field and in the know: and in South Africa they know more about this subject than almost anyone else.

Replicate this throughout the third world and add in the victims of fatherly abuse  and rape from the middle east and other Muslim countries and you start to see the picture. As I have written before you do not become angry enough to kill yourself and several thousand other humans by flying a plane into a building unless you have endured a childhood replete with pain and injustice: you just don’t grow up with that potential unless control of your own body is violently forced from you at the hands of an adult.

In short childhood sexual abuse will in the coming year produce one hundred times as many victims next year as terrorism has in the past ten, it will be responsible for most of the social ills of western society, and it produces adults capable of rage so great they become terrorists. The kids got it wrong. They, like government and almost everyone else, are pointing their fingers at the wrong kind of terror: One that is much more socially acceptable and supports the unsupportable theory that we are civilised.

Enjoyyourburger.com, another site I “run” has been somewhat lacking love, life and gusto. i have come to the conclusion that the project would be better run by someone else as I don’t have the time or energy I would wish to give it.

Any vegetarian society etc. who would like to do something with it can drop me a line  at feedback AT freedomforall DOT net. I will happily transfer the beast to you for free. MacDonald’s or Burger King: You are welcome to write too - only it won’t be at all free for you.

I’ve been on the run - or more to the point freedomforall.net has been movong home for the second time in as many weeks. The first move was simple, the second less so, and is still ongoing. If things don’t work as you expect, I am sorry. It will all come good in the end.

Having been attacked by the British Medical Establishment in their attempt to get freedomforall.net “off the air”, I was somewhat bolstered by the support of my webhost. He linked to my site, even after I had been forced to move overseas for my hosting. He said his dad worked in medicine all his life and said doctors were a “totally closed shop” and that “whether there has been negligence or not” the doctors in my case seemed to be acting to protect themselves first and foremost.

I have done much of the work now of moving to a new host and away from Blogger as my publishing engine - something I had intended for a while in any case but which I brought forward as that was the next obvious point of attack for the self-serving hypocrits of medicine. When they took the Hyppocratic oath these people should have first said “I reserve the right to ignore everything I am about to say if it becomes neccessary to put my own selfish interests first - or those of a colleague”.

There are a few tasks left to sort out. Some old posts have yet to be moved, I need to redirect all my old archive pages to the new ones by hand coding the HTML and I need to update keywords on the new system. I also intend to hand import all the comments currently residing on the Haloscan system from the old site.

Yet first I am going to take a rest. I will do some sittiing meditation and take the advice of Shantideva in remaining like a log, come what may in the guise of impulses or desires to “get this right”. My own perfectionism - a common result of surviving an abusive childhood - is just another way of running. I need to let go.

From a speech by Rajan Madhok to the Royal College of Physicians, delivered September 2003, titled “Doctors in the new millennium: Hippocrates or Hypocrites?”:

“So, has modern medicine once hailed as the greatest benefit to mankind become a
dangerous activity? Have doctors turned bad? Become uncaring, only interested in
money, professionals? Closed ranks and started covering for each other? Forgotten
their vocation, become hypocrites pretending to be true to the Hippocratic Oath?

There is no denying that there are grains of truth in all these statements. Some
doctors have continued to use outmoded practices, have not been self-critical and
made repeated mistakes. Some have been arrogant and not respected patients’
wishes or indeed the law. Some have done things for money. There have been
cover-ups too.”